I figured for history preservation I should post about getting pregnant and finding out I was pregnant. I don't have the best memory, so I think the blog is a good way for me to look back and remember what I was thinking and feeling during all this wonderfulness!
The day I got pregnant I had the strongest feeling that I would. Tommy and I had always been careful because we had decided to wait (more me than him) to have children for at least a year. I can't describe the feeling, but I guess it was just a sense that I was ovulating and it was overwhelming. I thought about it all day. I was literally wrestling with the idea of whether or not to act on the feeling. I told Tommy about it that night, he pretty much thought I was crazy, and we decided to go for it anyways. I told him when it was over "aaaand we just made a baby." Tommy again thought I was crazy and thought I was being cruel because he wanted a baby so bad and thought I was playing with his emotions. :)
Over the next few days I still had the strong feeling, but doubted myself more and more every day. Tommy and Bonnie were really the only people I had talked to about it. I started making jokes about "the peanut." I'd say things like "man, the peanut is hungry!" or "don't talk like that around the peanut." We would just kind of laugh about it, and blow it off. December 6th was about two weeks after I got pregnant and I was at Sarah's house welcoming home the beautiful Baby Claire who had just been born on the 4th. Being around the baby and perusing "What to Expect When You're Expecting" while sitting on the couch got my mind running a mile a minute. Finally, I quietly said to Becca, "I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant." Becca said "are you sure it's not just because the baby's home and you're surrounded by baby talk? Why do you think you're pregnant, do you have any symptoms?" I told her that I didn't have any symptoms, I just knew that I got pregnant when I got pregnant. So she then SHOUTED across the full house of people "SARAH, DO YOU HAVE A PREGNANCY TEST?" I very casually took the test, at this point again doubting my feeling. While the test was marinating in the bathroom, I was chatting with Sarah and Becca in the baby's room, just kind of talking about why I thought I might be pregnant, talking about when my period was due (it wasn't for a few more days), and I was thinking the test would clear up all my suspicions, I started thinking I was sure it was negative. I strolled back in to the bathroom and there it was... the clearblue one with the unmistakable word- Pregnant! I alternated between gasping for air and saying a couple of bad words until I finally just fell on the floor. As soon as the shock cleared and I stopped shaking, I starting focusing on getting home to Tommy!!
Sarah helped me pack a gift bag that said "BABY" on the front with her copy of "What to Expect," a bottle of sparkling grape juice, and the test wrapped in a gift box. I got home and starting walking towards Tommy in the living room with the bag and told him I had an early Christmas present for him. He said he didn't want an early present (I tend to ruin surprises.) I told him I reeeally wanted him to have it and he was like "please just wait until Christmas, why do you have to give it to me now?!" He hadn't picked up on the fact that I was standing in front of him with a pastel purple bag that said BABY on it!! Finally I forced the bag upon him and told him to look inside. He saw the book first and froze. He said "does this mean you're pregnant?" I just smiled at him and told him to keep looking, but he couldn't get any further. Finally I reached in and took out the test and showed him. He was SO excited. He smiled for the rest of the night. He said he wasn't going to be able to sleep, but of course he was out like a light while I was up making good use of What to Expect. We knew we should wait, but we told so many people the first couple of days. It was so shocking to everyone, but we got awesome support from everyone!
So, to wrap things up, sorry for the mildly personal information in this post. :) Also, ladies, I can definitely attest to gut feelings, intuition, whatever you want to call it. Go with it! It's probably right! It's so hard to describe how I knew from the very moment I got pregnant that I was, but then I say I was so shocked when it was confirmed! Now I'm 20 weeks in and can't wait to meet Baby Lu! Just three short hours until my ultrasound. This baby had better not be sneaky! I want to know!!!!